*he's been worried ever since Chad's last few owls -- something is wrong, and he knows it* *it's when he gets Adrian's owl -- with only two words scribbled neatly on it(
Captain, Roof.) -- that he's filled with dread* *he tells Seamus he has to go out for a while, but that he'll be back soon, not to worry (even though the abruptness with which he
does leave will likely cause Seamus to worry anyway)*
*after grabbing his cloak, he apparates to the castle, taking the long way up to the roof, even though climbing up the side makes him dizzy; he needs to think, prepare for the worst, because he feels it'll be just that*
*climbs over the side, sees Adrian standing on the far side, looking out towards the tower, and approaches him* *much like the last time they were up here, both are wearing their black cloaks, both looking very much like Death Eaters they know they aren't; the only thing missing from last time are the black gloves and smattering of snow on the rooftop*
Don't be a twat, Ade. Of course, I came. *Adrian's not looking at him, and that worries him* What're you doing up here? S'wrong? *frowns at the answer; Marcus has been in that place before, the place where you think everything's wrong and nothing's right*
*frown deepens* Yeah. I know about him. *pause, listening* *slight snarl* He's not
replaced you, Adrian. You're his best mate. You'll never be replaced.
*should have the decency to grimace or wince or look abashed at the next comment, but he doesn't* You're damn right, I told you so. Christ, Ade. I
still don't understand what happened. You did a complete turn around; was like you were flying arse backwards. *jaw sets* I was happy that you were happy, but it didn't mean that I understood it. I never had any clue--
*snarls ferociously* Don't-- *pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration* I don't want to talk about Jonathan. You did the best you could, under the circumstances. I wasn't myself. I didn't
want to be myself. Don't blame--
*brow furls* Leaving? *confused* What do you mean? Where?
*he's stunned silent for a moment, and is only snapped out of it by Adrian asking him to say something* *suddenly furious* You're joining the
what?! How the fuck can you even
consider that? Aren't these the people who hate queers and magic? *snarls* Why would you want to be with people who hate everything you are? It's-- *points, sneering* --this is even more fucked up than you turning queer.
What about Ellie? All this time you've been fighting the bitch for Ellie and your rightful inheritance and you're just going to
leave her? *bitter laugh* Oh, right. I didn't realise. A priest's better ranking than a queer in the eyes of the Wizengamot.
Sorry.
*paces, not giving Adrian time to speak* Fuck this, Ade. Fuck this. This is bullshite. *looks at him* You're running away. You've given up and are running away. Why don't you fucking
grow up, Adrian? You're so used to getting what you want that the first time you can't have something -- some
one -- you fucking pout like a five year old. Give up the tantrum for just one minute--
*when Ade grabs him by the front of his cloak fist up, he returns the gesture; they stand there, neither moving, each holding on to the other by the front of their cloaks, and each ready to take the first hit if needed*
*they stay like that for a few minutes, breathing hard, hearts thumping, until Marcus drops his fist and pulls him into a fierce hug* *eyes sting and he shakes his head silently against Adrian's nod willing this to be wrong, to not happen, even though he knows it has* *he's not sure how long they stay like that*
*finally, Adrian releases him, gives a final little nod and wishes him a late happy birthday* *Marcus looks away, not saying anything else -- he
can't, and thankfully, neither does Adrian*
*after a long pause filled with words they'll never say, they each walk to opposite ends of the roof before apparating away without looking back*